As I keep preparing for my move to Norway, I am taking a step back from my business ventures, as I feel that I really just need to slow down and take care of myself right now. Everything is moving forward smoothly, and I have secured an apartment in Oslo and got my residence permit already, but at the same time there are just so many emotions that are coming up for me right now, and I am realizing that I am just not in a frame of mind to be able to help anyone else at the moment.
Having said that though, I still want to keep in touch with everyone, so I will continue to blog about my experiences and share what is going on with me both before I leave and after I arrive in Norway, but probably I won’t be able to do much business-wise until next year, as I will also need time to acclimate to Norway once I get there.
I am recognizing the need for me to just be open to receiving as much healing as possible now, and allowing the reality of everything to settle in. So I am giving myself some space to heal and to just be right now. Also, I feel that not only am I making big transitions in my life physically, but I am also transforming on many levels internally, and I feel I just need to allow that to happen without interfering or doing too much.
I was reminded of the expression ‘waiting to exhale‘ the other day (which I guess was also the title of a movie from the 90’s, but I digress), and I felt that it perfectly encaptures how I feel right now. I guess it is impossible (at least for me, and probably highly sensitive souls in general) to not feel stressed about traveling or moving, and I am definitely feeling all of that, in addition to feeling the sadness of saying goodbye to my life here in Los Angeles, and the nerves associated with moving back and starting a new life.
As I am transforming my life and myself on all levels, I also feel that this will have a big impact on my work in the world and my business, which is another reason why I am taking a step back right now. I don’t know what this work will look like in the end, but to be honest I think there will be big changes there too, and I think it will go much deeper than what I have done so far. Which is good news for all of you, and I can’t wait to share it all once it begins to become clear, however, it is not the time for that yet, obviously.
So I am continuing to take walks, do yoga, meditate, journal, and going to the gym, essentially doing what I can to try to stay calm and taking care of myself, and to be honest, I don’t feel that I can really focus my attention on much else right now (except for packing and taking care of everything associated with the move, of course). I will be teaching a few more yoga classes until the end of the month, but that will be it for that.
I am honestly looking forward to just getting everything taken care of, and arriving in Norway. I really think I won’t be able to fully “exhale” until I am settled in my apartment there, so I am keeping my focus on that. 🙂
My therapist gave me a little task in my session with her last week, to take some time to write down all my accomplishments from my time here in Los Angeles, which has been 15 years after all, so quite a while. I did it, and it’s interesting once you get stuff down on paper like that, and how it makes you realize all the things that have done and learnt, and how much you have grown.
I came here to study music and take the vocal program at Musicians Institute initially, which I graduated from and learnt so much in the process. I also studied audio engineering and released my own album a few years later, before I shifted my focus more towards spiritual work and healing. Music is still something very important to me though, and one thing I would like to do once I get to Norway, is to record some meditation and healing mantra music. So look out for that from me at some point. 🙂
That’s it from me today, but like I said I will continue to blog and stay in touch with everyone, although it may not be on a set schedule like I have been doing. Up until now I have been posting a new blog every other Tuesday, but I may not stick to that schedule in the future (since it is already Wednesday this week and I am posting this today). But would love to hear from you guys too, so please stay in touch and let me know what you are up to.
Sending you all so much love!
Love & light,